Where Are You Christmas?

Where are you Christmas

Why can't I find you

Why have you gone away

Where is the laughter

You used to bring me

Why can't I hear music play

My world is changing

I'm rearranging

Does that mean Christmas changes too

Where are you Christmas

Do you remember

The one you used to know

I'm not the same one

See what the time's done

Is that why you have let me go

Christmas is here

Everywhere, oh

Christmas is here

If you care, oh

If there is love in your heart and your mind

You will feel like Christmas all the time

I feel you Christmas

I know I've found you

You never fade away

The joy of Christmas

Stays here inside us

Fills each and every heart with love

Where are you Christmas

Fill your heart with love

Mommy's Princess Making Her Silly Face! ^.^

So yesterday Simon .&. I took Jodi to the mall to get her a build-a-bear .&. have lunch at Eastside Mario's. I had squid, I love that stuff!! Yumm! Jodi had a cheeseburger .&. fries and Simon had lasagna! We had a pretty good day. Last week was pretty good too referring to my hands, I even got to goto the club to celebrate Mike's birthday .&. mine .&. Simon's anniversary! Until Saturday, then it came back full force.. this year Santa if your reading this all I want is for all my family .&. friends to have a happy safe holiday! I want my Dad to get better! I also would like to get a long break from my hands .&. feet if you could, although I know it's a lot to hope .&. wish for.

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Arghhh!!

Ok so I finally got to the docs .&. got a prescription for this tropical cream.. I was really hopeful that it would work.. but it didn't..

It did nothing for me.. didn't numb it nothing.. so after a few day I went to the ER.

I seen a doctor there who told me that he would write a referral to try .&. get me in quicker to the specialist but that some of the doctors had left .&. are super busy trying to fit all the patients in. Other than that he gave me some demerol for the pain .&. told me if I start getting black spots on my hands or feet to come right back because that would be narcosis, which for those of you who don't know that means your skin in dying..

So yesterday was my first good day in over a week.. I went christmas shopping with my boyfriend for our daughter .&. I was pretty much 'pain .&. itch' free until we got to the hospital to visit my dad, then my feet started to get hot and kinda itchy..

I went home .&. cleaned my bathroom .&. mopped a bit then everything fell to shit again..

but so far this morning I'm ok,

so I will keep my fingers crossed!

I think I'm going to goto mom's for the day!

Wish me luck! xo